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Back to Blogging! (Finally!)

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Did you miss me?!

It’s great to be back, I’ve really missed writing here. After NaNoWriMo and then suddenly FINALS at college (yeah totally forgot about those), I was really starting to wonder if I’d EVER get back to my little corner of the blog-o-sphere!

Whelp on to business! I just spent just about my entire day working on Astronomy assignments for my last class. This included:

  • 1 Lab
  • 2 Activities
  • Exam #3 (60 questions)
  • And the Final Exam! (120 questions!)

I can now successfully say that my mind is fried!

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This is how I felt ALL day!

Totally time for a break. Taking into consideration that I have to be up at about 6AM and it’s already 12:40AM, I should go to bed. But, I have to unwind. I can’t go to bed with a head full of astronomy problems dealing with mathematical equations, scientific notation, Hubble’s Law and so on.

Time to start a new book! I just finished “A Frozen Heart” by Elizabeth Rudnick. It is an expansion to the already famous Disney “Frozen” movie. The book follows Anna’s and Hans’ Points-of-View (POV) through alternating chapters, which “takes a sophisticated look at events of Frozen, exploring the couple’s backstories, motivations, and doomed relationship.”

Actually, it wasn’t that bad a of read and for any Disney (especially Disney “Frozen” fans) I would definitely suggest you pick it up. It’s relatively cheap. I got it at a BJ’s Wholesale Club for about $8 or $10. You can find it here on Barnes & Noble’s website for $9.73.

I’m thinking of picking up some of Brandon Mull‘s books. I have the first “Fablehaven” book and the first “Beyonders” book. I’m not sure, can I read “Beyonders” first or do I have to read “Fablehaven” so I can understand the world? Are they connected at all. Time to check the blurbs on the back of the books!

Anyway, off to read (although bed would be the smarter choice at this point…yay for lack of sleep later!)

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Look for my words again soon!

-Soleil

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Update

Just popping in to say hi!

Also, it was raining so I decided to bake some cookies! Please check out my recipe for these delicious Blueberry Nutmeg Cookies on my food blog, found here: Tuck In and Chow Down.

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Thanks!

Look for my words again soon!

-Soleil

Insecurity: A Daunting Companion

I am secretly insecure. About a lot of things. Sure, I’m the chipper, go-to gal amongst all of my friends and family, too. I’m always ready to lend a helping hand, whether it be running your errands for you, to babysitting your kid, to helping out with homework or housework or yardwork. Optimism is my middle name, mostly. I always have a ready smile and I always have something to laugh about.

But deep down, WAY deep down the darkness known as fear weaves me in a tighter web. I think this is the source my anxiety feeds on. This internal fear that I hide away so well from so many people that they don’t even know I have this problem until someone I’m close to (like my mother, for instance) tells them.

What am I insecure about? Many things. I’ve touched on them briefly in previous posts. Like how I’m 25, have only ever had one “serious” relationship (which only lasted 6 months), fear that I’ll never find “the one”, and I’ll die old and alone. That I’m still a student at university and already owe up to 16,000$+ in student loan debt and I still have, at least, 3 more semesters to study through in order to get my degree. How I currently have no “actual” job, but rather a variety of odd-end side jobs that don’t offer 401K’s, or retirement plans, or insurance and health plans. I’m not on a payroll!

I am a 25 year old university student working odd jobs that don’t offer steady payroll or benefits, making at least $1.50 more than New Jersey’s current minimum wage per hour, have 6 student loans, 2 credit card bills, and 1 car payment (plus $300 for insurance every 2.5 months), a cell phone bill, and only $40 in my savings account.

I’m afraid I’ll never be financially secure and that I’ll have to live with my parents for the rest of my life. It’s such a frightening idea, not because I don’t like them (because I do) but because I know they can’t afford to support me now, let alone for the rest of their lives! Besides, guys tend to shy away when I say I still live with my parents due to my financial situation.

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I’m afraid I won’t find a good job after college. (I mean, who wants to hire an art major nowadays? I think I picked a crappy major). I’m afraid that I’ll only find mediocre jobs that don’t pay well and don’t offer the benefits necessary to live in today’s world. I’m afraid that I’ll never make enough money to pay off my debts. I’m afraid that I’ll never make enough to get a house, to get married, to start a family. I can’t even try to travel because that’s too expensive!!!

Every day I hear on the news about America’s economy and how people are struggling. How the middle class is shrinking and the lower class is growing in size. How it costs a middle-class family over $105,000 to support a family of 4 per year! How one 19 year old student in North Jersey already owes $60,000+ in student debt and still has 2 more years of college to go. That’s ridiculous!

I know my situation could be worse so for the fact that it is not so horrible is a blessing and a slight relief, but that fear still grips me. It’s always there, a dim, nibbling presence in my mind and it’s scary!

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So now you know a bit more about me. And what I’m afraid of. I feel like we’ve bonded. Thanks for listening….

Look for my words again soon.

-Soleil

Playing Catch-Up

Shops and Restaurants and Cafes line Asbury Avenue in Ocean City’s Downtown. They and the street buzz with activity as locals and tourists visit during the summer holiday. Trees offer shade at the shopfronts and sidewalks allow for easy comfort and separation from the road traffic.

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Pretty flowers lined this sign! I wish I knew what kind they were. My parents said they might be geraniums, or some type of them. I wish I knew for sure…. Do any of you know what kind of flowers these are?:

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I really wanted to eat at this cafe:

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It’s called “Ma France Crêperie”, which translates to “My France Crêperie”. Very simple. But, they were only open from 8AM – 3PM. Not that this was an absurd time window, but I just always found myself remembering this place after 3PM. -sigh- Perhaps next time I can try to eat there. I love crêpes! I also wanted to eat at a restaurant called “The Chatterbox” which even has dog-friendly patio seating outside! But, alas, no one wanted to go with me and I didn’t want to go alone. -sigh again-

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Oh! It rained on…Tuesday, I think…and, afterwards, there was this GORGEOUS double rainbow! Of course, the second rainbow is very faint, but it’s there, barely visible on the righthand side.

See for yourselves!:

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Also, after the storms, the clouds looked like they had been painted into the sky:

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Literally, I thought they looked like clouds painted on a canvas in a rococo style, like “The Swing” by French artist, Jean-Honoré Fragonard, and “Jupiter in the Guise of Diana and the Nymph Callisto” by, also French artist, François Boucher. The paintings are light and airy and the light and colors are emphasized. Rococo is a late-Baroque period style of painting that I am in love with.

Also, we played a lot of Scrabble on this trip. It was one of the boardgames supplied at the beach house for rainy days or just general fun, as we found it. I love Scrabble. I love creating words out of the tiles. It’s sort of like my love for crossword puzzles. I think the two might be related somehow, though the love for it is the same. Here’s one of our games after we had played all of our tiles:

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Let’s see…what else? Ah, there was one night where when I was walking on the beach after dark and it was low tide, that I came across one of the jetty’s on the beach and found life! I found rock after rock covered with little mussel shells! It was fascinating!

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I thought it was spectacular and was a bit sad to leave the little creatures to go back to the beach house. They bubbled when you ran your fingers across them and they grew in great patches across the large rocks!

Then there was a “Baby Parade“. The 106th annual baby parade held in Ocean City at the boardwalk. The only thing I took a picture of was that, at some point in the parade, there was a Scottish Pipe and Drum band. I love Scottish Pipe and Drum bands….they call themselves the “Sand Pipers” (after the bird, get it, haha) and they were playing “Danny Boy”, so I simply had to snap a photo:

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Also, I believe I mentioned that my family and I rode around on the boardwalk yesterday morning in a surry. Here’s a photo I asked one of the attendants to take when we arrived back at the surry shop:

IMG_2261I’m the one sitting right up front with the tropical shirt. My brother Kit is sitting behind me with his glasses and scruffy beard. Then in the second row, it’s my mom and dad, and Kit’s girlfriend. Oh, her name is Sydney, by the way.

This morning, I had some very delicious Eggs Benedict for breakfast. If you ever meet me and want to make a good impression, take me out for breakfast and order me Eggs Benedict. I may very well love you forever.

IMG_2262Also, there was this adorable little teapot that they gave me when I ordered hot tea! See?:

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Actually, I’m not sure that I would call it a teapot…maybe a tea canister? Anyway, it’s adorable and I want one! But…I don’t know what it’s called so I’m not sure how to search for it!

-sniff sniff- The Doctor knows how I feel! -sobs in a corner- I really would love this glass tea brewer!

Well, those are all of my photos that I took while on my very lovely family vacation. I hope you all had a great week because I sure did!

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Look for my words again soon!

-Soleil